GAMEPLAN!

Hahah...Okay It's Gameplan time!

Yah,like Jon said We only have 4months to save ourselves or to be more precised
We've only got less than 110days left!

So yesterday (28/6/08) I had my second taste of Olvl , MT Oral.It was okay-ish.I gave the examiners logical answers and I didnt beat around the bush too much like I did during my Nlvl and the best/worst (this one you decide yourself) part I actually made the examiners laughed!So I dont know whether they were laughing for the right or wrong reasons.A Distinction is inevitable but upsets can happen.So let's wait patiently for August to come.

Yesterday,I was pondering and reflecting abt how I'm suppose to spend that golden&precious 110days. So after much thought,I came up with a Gameplan! A Gameplan that will make sure I'm always on task and not wasting any precious seconds.

Yah,even how motivated I am,I need a Gameplan! Well for start, I havent been doing too well recently or to be more accurate this week! Three tests from this week have shown that I need to put a HELL OF A LOT more effort on one subject.First test was POA, well I managed to predict what kind of questions were going to be tested. I was denied of the full mark due to my carelessness.I got 18/20.Sometimes I wonder, even though I use the calculator,I still manage to calculate it wrongly. ):
Second test was MATH! Okay let's be straightforward. I FAILED with a capital F! I got 17/48.That's my paper1, well let's not talk about paper2 shall we.That's shows I really need to catch up on my MATH. To be honest, I was actually struggling in understanding the questions. Well, it was a prelim paper from an elite school. I didnt find the MidYear Olvl Math paper that hard but Prelim is like a HELL OF A TOUGH paper! You know, I spent 15mins staring at this geometry qs and I still couldn't deduce what kind of angle it was. ):

Third test was Physic paper and I've total confidence in that paper! (: I have yet to receive it back.
Even though there werent any Geography or Social studies tests.I still struggled in answering the questions that were put to me. On a brighter side, I'm beginning to fall in love with Chemistry again (: and starting to adore English!

In conclusion, there's still a chunk more to improve on and I seriously need a new calculator!

GAMEPLAN: RESPONSIBILITY DISCIPLINE RESPECT EXCELLENCE

I guess, from this week onward I've to increase the number of revision hours per week and seriously not letting myself succumb to my weakness.Well, 4months of -working hard, sleeping early ): , waking up early, less sleeping period,staying up late finishing on HW, not playing the xbox360, not staying up late on Msn ): or watching soccer, not playing soccer&badminton almost everyday :( and not thinking about someone for just that period - is not much of a sacrifice as compared to what my parents have done in raising me up. So being a nerd and doing nerdy stuff for 4months is a good bargain. (:

Believe me that's my revision and the one that will accompany my late nights and I still have more!

Does anyone going to miss that funny,humorous&playful face before he tranform himself into
-_____- ?

Incarcerated In my own world

I guess that's it. I'm going to change into my nerd-suit soon. It going to be quite sometime before the next post ):
P.S: I'm in love with 'Lucky' (:

110days left.

"I'll wait for you I promise you, I will"

CURRENT STATUS: I'M MARRIED!

YAH. Now I'm unofficially married! Married to BADLUCK!

(It's a SHE!)

Today was a very stupid-ominous-unfavorable-inauspicious-unfortunate-regrettable (okay I'm out of negative words) day! Come to think of it, it' wasnt just today, well most of the days! Hahah. ): Seriously, it was funny lah! Okay spare me the laughter!

Today, I woke up pretty early... 4:45am! Early bird catches the worm! I realise that I can absorb better if I do my revision at this hour! Yah,Friends are after all, a sweet toxic! (: You know what, I'm really an Idiot! The previous night I slept at 1:45. So I only had 3hours of sleep and by the end of my 4th period I was totally beat and my brain was dying on me and (not just that ) many unfavourable things happened today!

Let's start slowly shall we...

At 6:50am, I was already ready for school, I thought that I could rest for a while (stupid ME!) since I usually leave home at 7am and it wasnt like everyday I was early for school! So I choosed to rest at the sofa! I guess that's the stupidest thing to do! My sofa is sooooooooooo damn comfortable! I guess I got too comfortable that I spilled MILO on my Sch uniform and pants! It wasnt a mild spill, it was an intensive one. My uniform was totally ____! And I was soo disappointed with my mother! Instead of worrying abt how am I suppose to get to school with a clean uniform, she was particularly angry because I dirtied the sofa and she was like saying - " OMG, Iszwan what have you done.See the sofa! Wait till your father knows about it." SIAL! In the end I was late for the school's back gate and I had to walk all the way to the front gate.What's sucks was, I had to wear yesterday's school uniform which was crumpled,dirty and sooo unfavourable. SIGH~

That's not it, during Chemistry Practical, I had a freak accident with the test-tube! (okay dont laugh!) I accidentally cut myself with the test-tube! Now I've a slight cut on my forth finger. ):

(And not to forget) Today I was practically limping and my right thigh is really in so much pain (even as I'm typing this!).I even have problems to pass motion!

A mark on the forth finger means that someone is married and I'm MARRIED! Hahah.

Maybe there's a blessing in disguise.Yah,someone told me that (: Well I've to go now. I got truckloads of deadlines to meet! Oh yah...I could not get my hands on my testimonial.Sorry):

"I've to get you out of my head..."

Just A short Post...

Hahah...I'm back!(again!) Does anyone care?




Okay,I've seen my testimonial (real one!) and I shall not talk about it until I've it posted here (That's if Mdm Cheng issue the Testimonial to the whole class tmr). (:


Okay now it's crunch time for me! My MT Oral is this Friday and I really need all the help that I can get to improve my language. Not that I've problems with my MT is just that by hook or by crook, I must get an A1! I don't want to retake it. So MALAY LANGUAGE please be nice to me.
Can I call you? Hahah. Okay,I guess you're busy,maybe some other time. (:

LOL. Ridhwan is angry siah. Hahah.

Okay, next post shall be a lengthy one ( I hope so!).OMG I'm in so much PAIN now & I smell LEMAK AYAM CHILI PADI. Here I come! OUCH!

"Kehadiranmu membuatku ingin melayang..."

I'm soo lost

I guess I'm really lost right now.I'm no longer the idiot I used to be. In this past week, it has been clearer and (even) clearer as more time passes by. I have completely lost the person I was and I'm not quite sure what I have become. I used to be the person who is very optimistic,determined and don't give a damn to what other people think of me but now I'm totally different. I get taken aback easily and I let my nerves get the better of me.My emotions are running wild! At first I'm happy then sad then angry then happy then sad and then happy again! It's a kaleidoscope of emotions that makes me feel so uncertain and fearful at what lies ahead. I guess I have lost the joyful person in me.

A good example is today 20/6/08 (by the time you read this,it was yesterday).
At first when I woke up I was really damn happy (Thank You for the chat the previous night! You really made my day :D) and I was looking forward to play soccer with the rest of my classmates but every happiness comes with a sadness in it.My mom told me that my Maid's father had just passed away. I wasn't taken aback since I wasn't that close to her but somehow I felt for her.

That wasn't the only example of my sudden kaleidoscope of emotions. I have come to realise that I get angry so easily today.Before the soccer game I was practically happy but a few provokes from my friends during the game, I ended up stepping on alot of people foot and injured them in the course of my folly.This is not the real ME! I don't get angry easily and I'm not an aggressive player but today I showed the other side of ME!

"SORRY EVERYONE"

I guess I better get myself together. I have to learn to let things go and get over it.I must contain my emotions and not to let my nerves get the better of me.Else...it will be hard for me in the long-run.My mind has already been set.I know where I want to go right after O lvl and certainly I will surpass my brother! Yah...I really want to thank 'you'!

Hmmm...I guess that's it. It's 3:50am and the second-half Euro quartefinal gonna start soon. I hope tmr is a better day. I might not be online for a few days. I'll be staying at my late-grandmother place for a few days eventhough school is starting (though it's three blocks away).The next post shall be a better one.Well if you miss me...you can always call or sms me.Hahah. Yah...like I told 'you'...this ears of mine are for listening!

"Wow...you really made my day!"

122days left...

'SOMEONE'

You see, I'm the most gutsy and brave person you will ever come to meet and yet, I shrink to nothing at the presence of 'someone'.I think I'm in uncertainty and my mind is tangled up in winding weeds.How will I know that 'someone' is the ONE unless I try but yet again the fear of rejection (again) might be too hard for me to handle.

"You'll never know unless you try it"

I always get that. I don't want to go on living in this world being afraid to show my imperfections eventhough my heart is trembling and my balls shrinking to nothing.These feelings are dying to be free.

Yes...I have tried!Somehow I feel better now, much better than yesterday.Today when I saw her, she looked like she had a bad sex the previous night.Yah, come to think of it... for the past 4 years, I don't even know her well.I've always thought that she was an angel but now...she is a beast! Hahah. Now I feel much better.

Maybe I should just wait, wait for 'someone' to come to me and say,

"Hey, you want to be my girlfriend?"

and then I should just say,

"Hell YAH!"

"As I looked at her, 'someone' was at the top of my head..."

WHAT'S SOO GOOD ABOUT S**?

Hahah... I've watched 'You Don't Mess With The Zohan'! (sneak peek)

I cannot say it's an Awesome movie nor a bad one.Ok...I have to admit it's a hilarious movie but I've only one thing to comment: What's up with the SEX! When I watched it, somehow it kind of gave the views that OLDER & MATURE women adore S** and they get wild & turned on when they see a Man's S** Organ (In case you didn't know, man only have 1 S** organ!).The first scene (ah yah) made me vomit blood (literally).I think it would be a very awesome movie if the director just minus some unwanted&unnecessary S** reference from the movie.Honestly...I didn't know that it's a NC-16 movie till the movie started with the first scene! Yah...now I've a perspective that there's a thin line between LOVE & LUST.
Today , when I woke up and started flipping THE NEWSPAPER, the first news was abt someone being molested. Then, when I checked my Yahoo News, the first article was about Female Chimps hungry for more sex! What's so good about S**? Why is the world talking abt S**? Why do every American blockbuster movie has some traces of S** in it? AND Why am I talking abt S**?


But truly I really like the ending of the movie(don't worry it's not about S**).I really am touched by the following quote from this movie :

"You can't have Secrets in a relationship.You tell her the truth.If she's really the special one, everything will work out just fine."

-OMG IT'S SOOO CHEESY!

Now I'm very inspired after watchin this movie! I do encourage you all to watch this movie but...if you like watchin wild old&mature lady getting turned on and seeing Americans getting their A**es kick inside out by someone from the middle-earth who like cutting&styling ppl hair, You are highly encouraged!!

SIGH* ...My not-so-long-one-week break has officially ended! Now I'm soooo going to work hard for my 5 distinctions!(laugh all you one!I'm not kiddin!Better watch out!)

To Ani: Wow...you sounded like I always score own-goal! hahah!

To Azie: Is it awed for the right reason or for the wrong reason?

" I LIKE TO ORDER ONE 'SPECIAL ONE' with more chili PLEASE..."

Crazy Day!

Hahah...! I have a question: Who would play soccer (in Singapore) at 1pm when the sun is at its peak? I guess only retards!

My uncles & cousins played soccer at this hour (!) and OMG I actually joined them! I guess idiocy does runs in the family! We actually competed with another team that has the same idiocy running in their blood like us. My uncle organized this game so that we can get over all those I-DON'T-FEEL-LIKE-TALKING-ABOUT-IT ordeals that happened to us.(It's in PLURAL! So show some sympathy lah!). But playing soccer at 1pm doesn't make sense at all! Someone could have gotten a heat stroke! (Certainly not me...For the record...I lead a healthy life!) Hahah! Actually...we do make a very good TEAM! We won 6-1 and I scored a goal(actually it's two). OK I'll tell the truth. The actual fact :I scored 1 goal & 1 own-goal. It was an accident.Come to think of it I'm fond of own-goal.(yah...so what?I'm always as solid as ever!).Eh look at the bright side lah...they need me to score for them.Ok...I do look mean but actually I'm a very nice person.(don't laugh...this isn't a joke!) . Let's just say that I helped them by scoring a goal instead of saying I foolishly scored an own-goal. (:

Ok...I hungry and totally beat right now! I'm going to watch 'you don't mess with a zohan' later... TATA TITI TUTU...BYE!

"A chance...all I need is just a chance"

I'm losing my Sanity

How miserable can your life be? (where's the usual greeting?)
I think I'm losing my sanity inch by inch,day by day,minute by minute & second by second (that's exaggerating!)! In other words...you can say I'm losing my mind!

There have been too many deaths in my family lately! The first was my grandmother(the LOVE of my life), second was my neighbour(I consider him as family), third was my (eldest)uncle and the forth&last was my (third eldest)uncle . All these happened in a period of One F____ month and just last week we gained a new member of family. I guess that's life...we gain new friends but at the same time we'll lose some. I'm neither sad nor angry. I'm just lost!

I guess that's it...I'm lost for words right now.

"I'm strong , stronger than this"

I'm Back! (literally)

Hahah...I'm back! (is that good or bad? & Does anyone even care abt it?)

Ok...I shall not blog abt last weekend because I don't have any pictures
Yah... no Pictures = no FUN...no FUN = Totally Not ISZWAN!


First Thing First!...Finally I can have my break! Yah...I've been waiting for that for like so many donkey days & for the first time I've my holiday nicely planned out.(though it's a bit mundane)
For the past week...nothing extraordinary really happened (still recalling...)
Oh Yah...I injured my knee! No offense...Jon is a hell of a MVP player!
Not to be mistaken...it's...MOST VIOLENT PLAYER... Luckily,on that day he had a good mood...or else...I wouldn't be sitting down here, typing THIS! But I think Jon played a superb game...he outwitted,outsmarted and out-muscled everyone!
Although...he injured his knee too...mine was the worst!! SEE for yourself!

I have two bruises! Jon only have one! (hahah)

picture by Jon

For the record...the past three days (Monday to Wednesday)...I was on a movie marathon!(serious no kiddin)...I only slept for like 5hrs a day for the past three days...then I continued.I did have my toilet & meal break squeezed in and (surprisingly)I still could find some strength left in me to play soccer. These were the movies...(in no particular order):

1)A walk to remember

2)Fever Pitch

3)Hitch

4)Otai (Malay movie)

5)Jangan Pandang Belakang (Malay movie)

6)Waris Jari Hantu (Malay movie)

7) A millionaire's first love (Korean movie)

8)Windstruck(Korean movie)

9) Ah Long PTE LTD (hahah)

Hahah...(crazy right?)...well that's me! I think the best movie was Waris Jari Hantu or in English is 'Heir of the ghost' ( i guess so...). Initially,I was expecting a some kind of a horror movie (I even had my blanket ready! Hahah)...even the Title sounded spooky! Actually It was a romantic movie (with a capital R!) with only a little bit of horror squeezed into it.

Yah, it was a very sad(made me cried like a baby)-unexpected(I didnt expect it)-romantic(the leading actress is hot!)-horror(luckily didn't scare the shit out of me) movie! I dont really understand why the male protagonist didn't choose to love the leading star Maya Karin (in the movie) rather than becoming a _____ (no spoilers!).I guess that's life! Everyone has a choice to love or not to love someone.But c'mon lah it's Maya Karin! This guy is really an idiot! (ok...It's just a movie).

Hmmm...I guess that's another post and episode of my life! Right now...I'm on a reading marathon! (: And I shall blog what I've read! TATA!

This Wednesday...Pulau Ubin or Botanic Garden?... quick(!) make your decision. Don't tell Michelle! Shh...

"Mengartikan dirimu di dalam hatiku

Betapa ku sesali adanya dirimu

Haruskah ku bertahan demi cinta ini

Yang tak mungkin..."

WHAT THE FISH!

Hahah...Ok I shall blog about my week! (let me recall...)

Wednesday... I had Chemistry Practical Course (Yah...I blog about that already).Oh
Yah ...my PLEASURE XXx turned out to be GREAT after all (though it has an eerie smell)

Thursday... (morning) I had Physic Practical (as usual I was Late!)...(afternoon) I really cant recall what I did , but the evening I chatted with SURIANI,my long lost friend!
After like soooo many donkey years...I finally found her (I found her blog by chance).
We shared a close relationship during our Primary School days! Chatting with her does bring back the old times...(though I can't recall)Shit! I think Vina is right , I'm getting OLD and FORGETFUL! (moving on...)

Friday... (morning) I had Physic Practical but this time I was EARLY! (one minute early!I came at 8.29am! Nelson&Co. were late! HAHAH!) Ok...now I sound like I'm always late! (afternoon) We had movie treat at LIDO! (like always Mdm cheng treats us).Initially we wanted to catch the Kungfu Panda Movie but I don't know why&how I suddenly found myself at Fish&Co. (so yah...I missed the chance to catch Kungfu Panda; instead Mdm Cheng treated us at Fish&Co.) Of all the places...we ate at Fish&Co. ! I've only one thing to say: Why in the Blue Hell did I spent $15 on a piece of tasteless-Crap Fish which I could have spent it buying 3 Mc Spicy burgers! After that nothing great really happened except that I spent $5 on Julius Orange Juice (I don't even know the reasons wtf I spent $5 on a drink) Yah so now...I'm very broke and poor!

Eh...I managed to balance that ruler!(literally) Principle of moments has it that:When a body is in equilibrium ,the sum of clockwise moments at any point is equal to the sum of anticlockwise moments at the same point. (Wow...I managed to recall that! I'm not old after all!)

CRAP FISH!

I LOVE SS! (Social Studies)

Ok...I'm very determined to finish 'Heaven Sent' by Christina Jones by the end of the week!

Ok...I've a wedding to attend ...I guess that the end abt my week...I shall continue abt my weekend! SO TATA!

To Huey Ting:Eh I think you need to synchronise your display setting with mine... 1024 by 768! THX!

"Bintang yang mengambang kilau-kilauan

mengingatkan aku pada seseorang..."

135days left

MY class... 511!

HAHAH! Ok...today was an awesome day! ...My class had chemistry Practical Course at Singapore POLY! We were the only graduating class that went for this course! (Yah!We were the chosen privileged that get to go for the course!).

There's always a stereotype that express classes are better than those in the normal stream but I feel that my class is the BEST graduating class in queensway and the Whole Singapore!!( in JB and Batam too!). There's always something new to look forward to when coming into 511 classroom.Although,we have many differences I can see that everyone is trying to get along with each other.We treat the classroom like our playground,we crack jokes with the teachers and we even got our teachers into troubles!(remember SS...?) but come the time to be serious...we pull our socks together and put aside our nonsenses and get to serious business! YES! 511 is simply the best class! For the 3 years... as a class, we have shown that we're the BEST in terms of sports and academic! (yah, we won the inter-class captain ball game & soccer will be next! Lets not talk about N-level... let's just say...we broke the school & national record!)

The Practical Course went fine although we were late AS A CLASS! (at least I know that I'm not the only one that has problems with punctuality!).We learnt everything there is to know about polymerisation & formulation of fragrances and we get to make ourselves a paperweight & our own Chanel(perfume) !!

Ok...about my paperweight(I don't even know where to start!)...It doesn't even look like one!I think mine looks the worst! SEE... it looks like a paperdung & smells like one too!

I cant even see my pic!

I named my Chanel 'PLEASURE XXx'...! I don't really know how 'GOOD' it is til tmr!(cause it has to undergo a 24hrs aging process!)

'PLEASURE XXx'

CAUTION:Do not use too much! May cause severe horniness!

What made the day awesome was the LUNCH! (free meal!). Ok now I sound sooo cheapskate!But the fun part was the cam-whoring moments...

TO... Kai Heng,Boon Wee(ground),Bin Wei,Pei San & Shu yu: You Guys missed the fun!

And with the return of our General...MDM Cheng from her ten-weeks long hiatus or to be precise....COURSE! Everyone get ready for the weekly tests!

"Apalah Arti Hidup, Tanpa Cinta

Apalah Arti Cinta, Tanpa Dirimu"

138days left to 'O' ... :)

Iszwan 101. part2

Ok...Yah this shall be the second part of my 101!

1:Have you ever...

Hugged someone:YAh...

Kissed Someone:Yah...my Grandmother!

Done stupid Things that made you embarrassed:Yah!..all the time!

Fall in Love:How do you define love?

Said sorry to someone:Yah! ALL the time!

Been to Europe:NO

Been to Asia:Yah...I'm in Asia!

Slept After 12.ooam:Yah...of course!

Played SPIN THE BOTTLE:Yah

Turned down a Dare:NO...

(I'm a man of my word)

Been Detained in court:NO...(yet)

Done the House Chores:YES!

(who says that only Girls do house work!)

2:Your Favourite...

Past Time:Listening to Music

Sport:Soccer!

Music Genre:Pop-Rock

Movie Genre:Romance with a little bit of action!

Football Team:LIVERPOOL!!

(You'll Never Walk Alone)

Musical Artist:ROSSA!

Musical Band:UNGU!

Movie Star:TOo many to name

Beverage:Slurpee!!

Food:Anything that goes with LEMAK AYAM CHILLI PADI!

Meal of the day:LUNCH!

(cause at lunch time only,MacDonald serves MC SPICY!)

Book:Charlotte's Web!

(It's not childish)

Movie:Ayat-Ayat Cinta

(I actually cried watchin it!)

TV show:ONE PIECE!

Radio Station:RIA 89.7FM!

(MISTERI JAM 12)

Song:'Jangan Kau Ucap Selamat Tinggal' in English 'Don't you ever say goodbye' by Shades :)

(the first song I've ever heard in my life!)

Phrase: "You want to borrow my dictionary/vocab book/grammar book/joke book?"

(dont copy me!)

SUBJECT:PRINCIPLE OF ACCOUNTS! :)

3:Are you...

Sensitive:Not so...

Easily Hurt:Sometimes

Forgiving:Always

Quiet:Haha...not really

(I can talk all day,all night long! I guess I get that from my MOTHER!)

Calm:Not so...

Outgoing:yah!

Active:OF course!

Gutsy:Yah Of course! but...

Confident of Yourself:Yah!

A good Listener:Yah!

(just give me a call)

Easily Bored:Yah ..Always!

Open-Minded:Yes...I am Open-minded!

Shy:Not so

Understanding:Yes I am!

Happy at the moment:Mixed!

Playing Any Online game:No

Tired:not so!

Hardworking:Yah!

Educated:Needless to say...YAH!

an IDIOT:YAH...needless to say!

Romantic:I guess ...

In Love:I donno

The only Child:No...I'm the second and the last

(I have a brother)

4:Will/Would you...

Curse a friend:Not so...

Sneak out at night:MAYBE...

(SHH...)

Further Your studies Overseas:I dont think so...

Work in the overseas:Maybe...

Try summoning a ghost:no harm trying right?

Try Alcohol:NEVER!

Get Piercing:NEVER!

Smoke:NEVER!!!

Try drugs:NEVER!!

LOVE someone Whole heartedly:YES!

Have more than one spouse:NO

Cheat on someone you LOVE:NO AND NEVER WILL

Kiss someone of the same sex: EEEE...NEVER!

Lie to your friends:DEPENDS

Lie to your Girlfriend:DEPENDS

Lie to your Parents:YES

Donate to charity:YES!!!!!!!

5:What do you think when of you hear ...

Beauty:My Late-grandmother!

Bald:Stone cold?

Hip-Hop:NAZ!

Hotty:LEMAK AYAM CHILLI PADI!

Pegasus:YELLOW!

Chicken:Birdflu?

Hair:Michelle! (nice hair!!)

Muscle:JON!

Monster:VINA!!

Sweet:Mentos!

English:Vocab!

Bologna:Italy!

Idiot:ISZWAN...

I guess that's the end of part two...It's 2255hrs & I have school tomorrow!

To Vina: KAPAN??? :P

To Nadiana:It's confirmed! I'm a boy! :D

"Ku mengerti , Ku pahami

Keputusan ini..."

137days left... :)